in that dream...

in that dream.....

I was going by car and i got lost, i tried to go back to the same place i was before but i was not able, the car went another way, it was the night and i noticed i start loosing control over the car the lights started to fade, my senses started to fade, i was not able to do anything.....and slight fear of causing an accident appeared, yet within seconds it was gone and i realized i am dying and it is a dream......it continued and only black deep presence of awareness continued......and i stayed like that in total darkness as presence for a while and then i thought: "what do i do now?" and i though, i will sound the guru yoga now....so i sounded the long A......waiting for that which was about to happen, i waited several seconds....and i woke up. :)

the state of total darkness and presence of awareness appears in Buddhist Teaching is called "ultimate achievement" - this happens at the end of the bardo of dying (the end of death) -right after the dissolution of winds and senses into subtle drops carrying the mindstream after that the Brightness of The Base appears -- the Great Light (God if you please) seemed i made it into Guru Yoga in the dream :) - if you recognize that as your own light, you are fine and stay there, if not, the next bardo of Dharmata is starting and then next bardos of becoming that if you don't recognize all the visions appearing at that time as you -- you move towards next birth :)

- i had that dream the day before seeing one of the Zen teachers, the student of Shunryu Suzuki. :)